jacko ordered A MASSIVE BOUQUET OF BEAUTIFUL FUCKING ROSES and a pint of fuckin strawberry ice cream and also a bag of sugar (my actual groceries lol) to my house??? cuz i'm sick???? I'M CRYING???? HE'S PERFECT?!?!?! THEY'RE SO PRETTY?!?!?!?!?

i adore him so much omfg :')))) he's so sweet omg. his back is still jacked up so he's seeing another doctor about it :< i want him to be ok so bad!!! and not just cuz i love getting picked up ;) heehee. poor baby's all hurt :((( wish i could make him soup < 333

started writing this earlier but: had a great chat w/ my closest wasteland buddy and she like. omg. she totally railed the first friend from Below. the one who broke up after 13 years with his gf lmfao. life is so weird

i adore jacko so much omg. ok he's having an awful day he fuckin slipped a disc at work?? and now he has to take his dog to the vet?? he's gonna be out of sommish for a few days and i just wanna be sweet to him.

god idk. world ending? things changing? i'm sick again and things are falling apart (not necessarily in a bad way). i think i mentioned this but my gf is moving out at some point and i'll need a new roomie and jacko offered to be my new roomie if i can't find one??? i need SO MUCH SPACE LOL but fuck me man i kinda like the idea. just. i like the idea of having NO roommate best. and then jacko can just move to my town and we can kiss >:))))

not super into writing in this lately but i am down badddddd for jacko (luckily he is down bad for me too lol)

ok so my gf is moving out in a month ish and i need a new roommate?? i am scraping the town up and down but if nobody i personally know wants to rent out the 2nd bedroom jacko said he'd do it??? I KNOW THAT'S A HORRIBLE IDEA OMFG. and it'll only happen if i can't find someone to rent the room. b/c i can't afford Le Rent on my own

two of my old friends from college (who i don't talk to anymore??) split up, and they've been dating since uhhhh shit. 13 years?!?!? THIRTEEN ASS YEARS?!?!? christ. jesus. and i thought i was in a fix. jfc

everything kinda seems like it's either coming to an end or a beginning, huh? here's to meeting your crush at the end of the world *clinks glasses*

bdsm: it's fun!!

LMAO OK OK formalized bdsm: it's fun!! i've never done like "actual bdsm" or been anyone's sub before until now (hiiii jacko hiiii) but it's SO FUN. i feel so weirdly comfortable and safe idk idk???? a lot of it is jacko being like the sweetest and nicest dom on earth omfg omfg.

things lil baby sub dale did not account for: people being OH SO THIRSTY FOR MY DOM on tumblr. omfg. i am swatting other subs away like flies here it's very funny. i have a super cute ownership thing with jacko so he's my onnnllllyyy dom and i am his onnnlllyyyyy boy/sub (er. only sub?? he's gay and i am also. lmfaoo. i just feel the need to specify cuz soooOOO much of this like assumes a weirdo cishet dynamic and we are neither thankyouu). BUT GDAMN THESE BITCHEZ THIRSTY FOR MY DOM LMFAO. 2. booooo he lives in CA we can't see each other all the time boooo. 3. he has a medical license right and i have a weird series of medical kinks and he says he's down to play but liiIIIIIIIiiike in my head i'm like "oh noesies will he think it's weird that i want him to roleplay breaking his like. medical practitioner's oath of not exploiting patients' cocks or whatever 4. idk why this is in list form. it is now. I'M SICK OKAY (like actually sick i have a cold my brain is goo rn). ok line break

a FUN THING ABOUT JACKO IS he'll tooooootally dress up in my specific kink heheheheheheh. which is a bit silly cuz i'm like "i need you to look like jason voorhees listen. listen the hockey mask and blood and leather jacket really do it for me" but like. ehehehhe. we just have so much fun together. i told you the collar he ordered me arrived right????? i got to see it!!!! it's custom!! made!!!! with real leather!!!! and a silver ouroboros clasp!!!!!!!!!!!! i've never had anything so pretty made for me LET ALONE CUSTOM MADE OMFG and it has a cute back part for the leash and HE'S GETTING THE LEASH NEXT KDSKAJDHKJAHDKJAH i hope he never lets it go :>>>>>>>

anyway im like. sick sick (like i have a cold. did i say that??) so im just tryna take it easy buuuuuuuuut i really want him rn (affectionately) and he's ASLEEP bc he lives in CALIFORNIA BOO

bingo bango i feel horrible haha. idk why though WAIT YEAH I KNOW WHY IT'S MY JOB OMFG

i'll come back to that. maybe. maybe not. Jacko took me on a date!! as best he could over the internet!! LMAO. He ordered a shitton of sushi to my apartment and we had dinner together on video chat and played dragon age and chatted some more and i got as laid as you can get over vid chat LOL. he's sooooooooooOOOooOOO good at getting me off akdhkahukayhueiuy sorry sorry he's just like really fun and good and cute and sweet and nice and good and hot and cool ig idk idk heh

man anyway i'm really tired and whatever but i wanna still be productive? i might get some food and clean the house?? put on a movie?? WHO KNOWS?????

heh wow has it been many many days and I am still very much liking what jacko is bringing to the table??? yes. lol. he got assigned to the medical tent for WW so he doesn't get to pat me down for security ;) but i have a REAL BIG HARDON FOR MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS so i'll prob just be thirsting after him over the fence or whatev while he works lmfao. he's being such a sweetie though. the other day he was like "so what's your favorite scent?" and it turns out he's buying fucking aftercare balm??? he's so sweet???? i adore him???? omfg????? nobody has ever been this nice to me?? before??? i also got to watch him do a teeny tiny vtube stream because everybody and their mom streams these days ;) and i was fuckin messaging him on discord while he was on stream and making him laugh and he was just. he has the cutest laugh you guys i can't get enough of it. he's at work rn so i can't bug him lmfao but GOOD NEWS HE'S JUST AS OBSESSED WITH ME if not a lotta lotta lot more which is FUN because YAY because oh my god do you know what my life is like lately???

:)))))))) who is a lucky man. it is me. dale is lucky lol

nothing like turning my brain off and going off into my happy little dumb slut space lmfaoooo. it's nice to be cared for :')

soooOOOooOO jacko let slip he fuckin sent in a request for a custom collar?? for me??? for meeeeeee??????????? he showed me the photo of the one it's inspired by and it's SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL YOU GUYS. LIKE SO BEAUTIFUL. LIKE FUCKING GORGEOUS. it's all beautiful and iridescent and purple and has this fucking gorgeous silver clasp shaped like an ouroboros?????? IT'S BEAUTIFUL?!?!?!! i can't believe i get to be a pretty pretty goth slut for someone and get to wear this thing?!?!?!!?!?!?! (also jacko is so fuckin sweet lmao he's like "ok how much would you adore me if i brought you weed for wasteland" and i was like "uhm a lot?? lol" and an HOUR LATER he was like "ok guess who fuckin got you a gallon bag full of weed" LMAO. he doesn't even smoke!!) GUSHGUSHGUSH

exploring all of this has been super meaningful to me too idk. i wanna write more when my brain isn't a busted up mess lmao. i wanna just assemble my silly gifs and have my silly feelings. brain dumb. so tired. lol

slain like a beast :')

i swear this isn't gonna become the so-and-so gush blog AGAIN (oh god do i have to fucking come up with a pseudonym for him now?! i can't use his wasteland name cuz that's somehow more obvious?! you know what fuck you all you're never gonna figure any of this out lmfao it's jacko from the WCC he's so cute and i have a fuckin dumdum crush on him and he asked me on a ddddddddaaaaate (an internet date BUT WHATEVER lmfao)

EDIT 7/11: *dreamy sigh* not every day you randomly meet an internet human who's ridiculously sexually compatible with you ahdksjahdkja. how is he psychically divining the perfect way to dom lil dale here. heehee ahdkjahdkahkdahjkhd rolling on the floor screaming

i'm back this is now the jacko scream zone. he's also a vtuber and he's sooooo cute and. and and and. he put all these easter eggs from my video game (new era of being less obscure about my internet activities dale is being honest about being a game dev now) in the backdrop of his stream and there's this super cute polaroid of my game's self-insert-me and adhajkkja. it's so cute i love when people put in effort for me i'm such a sucker for it hahahaha. and jacko's like "ofc baby you deserve it i love being all spoily towards you" and omfg omfg. ahdjskdjka. part of me is like "oh dale you bratty little self centered bitch wanting someone to treat you like a sexy little princess is ridiculous" meanwhile there's this ACTUAL TOP OF A MAN who's like "let me care for you babygirl" and i'm all "but :< me? me dale??? me, stressed out shitty constantly working idiot gay man boy dale?!?!" yes. me. lmao. ig what he GETS out of spoiling me and treating me super fucking cute and sweet, he gets me wrapped around his fucking finger and doing whatever he says khadjhjkahd

this is so weird haha. i'm so happy?? this is kind of edifying in both a sexy AND emotional way???? crying in the club etc etc etc

I'M BACK I MISSED HAVING A BLOG I'M GONNA REMODEL THIS PLACE I'M DOING REALLY GOOD :>>>>> like. re-he-heally good if you know what I mean heh

i'm like super tired but also de-stressed. so remember how i'm on tumblr now? i just read my last entry and the guy who slid into my dms is heehee actually this very very cute guy i like who i had a bit of a crush on sight unseen but I didn't wanna be weird about it but turns out HE started hitting on ME and long story short we're going to bang at Wasteland?!?!?!?!? he's like on my discord??? we have a lot of the same kinks and i'm p excited???? hahah. SLUT DALE ACTIVATE

okokok more. why not lmao. OKAY SO WE BOTH DO WASTELAND WEEKEND RIGHT he's part of the WCC (Wasteland Communication Corps) which is the radio station out in the wastes and I'm part of ODS which is like this unhinged veteran party merc group and we've never met irl before but he's new-ish to Wasteland and has never been to Jugger (!!) or Smashbots (!) or EVEN THE THUNDERDOME?!?!?!!? which is RIDICULOUS lmao imma make him carry me like Master Blaster so i can get up good on the dome >:) heehee.